unsure.

Feeling a bit lost lately.  A bit like I'm just stumbling around.  It's hard to describe, but it's almost like sometimes I just feel so disconnected from so much, and I just really don't know what I am doing or what is going to happen.

I want to be patient and believe, humble myself, trust Him, and accept what and who I am.  But sometimes I just worry that I am just doing it all wrong or screwing it all up.

cypress.

Photo: Mary C.

An absolutely gorgeous day on the mountain.  After being away for over 2 years, it felt good to be back on my board - it was also a pleasant surprise to find out that I hadn't drastically lost all my skills haha.

Looking forward to being surrounded by people I love this weekend.  Almost through February.

hockey faces.

Looove this graphic.  Very tempted to order the stickers... but I'd likely never use them in the fear of ruining them ahaha.  Maybe just for fun to look at?

Love my team <3.  I did miss hockey.

sometimes.

... and it just sucks.

silver linings playbook.

Watched Silver Linings Playbook last night.  The way it approached mental illness was interesting & different.  It was very honest, real & raw, and I can see why its been getting nominations.  Also this week, Hockey Talks was launched by the seven Canadian hockey teams.  The month-long initiative stresses awareness, openness, and acceptance of mental illness: "...it's OK to talk about mental illness, its OK to ask questions and, most important, it's OK to get help."

There are so many "not-pretty" things in the world that people don't want to acknowledge or talk about.  And it's sad, and it's harsh, but it's the world we live in.  This past week has brought up some thoughts & feelings that have been a bit difficult & painful - I sometimes sure wish I just knew.